Merry Christ-Mess

When Jesus came, it was messy. He didn’t come to this earth in a seamless, spotless regal procession. He came as a baby, born in dirty, smelly surroundings, during a time long before modern medicine existed.

Anxious Introverts Can Cherish Community Too

I began to develop a new perspective on relationships and community. Instead of something to be feared, I started to see them as a blessing and gift from God. I got the sense that, for the first time in my adult life, God wanted to establish me in a community of my own where I could feel like I belong—where I was a part of a family.

Keep Walking.

Today is the final day of National Eating Disorders Awareness Week for 2018 in Canada. As I sat pondering my past this morning, some words came to mind that I wrote back in 2003. I was in the thick of my battle with binge/purge type anorexia, and during this season of my life things were …

Let’s Talk.

I’ll never forget that moment. The details surrounding it may be hazy, but the question will be burned in my memory forever. It was the first time anyone had ever confronted me about the eating disorder that I had been hiding for well over a year...

Celebrating Life Today

Today is a significant day. Today is the 10-year anniversary of my final recovery from binge-purge type anorexia. I’ve been thinking about this day all year long—conceptualizing the brilliant blog I would put out to commemorate it and imagining the sense of triumph I would feel as I celebrate the victory. I’ve thought about how …

A Recovered Anorexic’s Guide to Pregnancy

I am quickly approaching the day I will celebrate my ten year anniversary of “life after an eating disorder”. After a seven-year battle with binge-purge type anorexia, on December 6th, 2007, I decided once and for all to put my faith in something bigger than myself and to allow the transforming power of God to …

4 Lies that I Believe About Myself

We all believe lies about ourselves. Even when we don’t realize it, our creative minds come up with these sneaky, little untruths that can convince us we are something we’re not… or, often times, that we’re NOT something that indeed we ARE. A huge part of my mental health recovery journey has always been identifying …

Body Talk: Because Being Pregnant Changes Everything!

This December I will celebrate 10 years eating disorder free. As I reflect on the past decade, I am in awe of the countless ways that my life has changed for the better, and by the healing that has been able to take place in my heart, mind, and spirit. I never used to believe …

A Fresh September Start

"Today is September 1st—the start of a new month. For me it really represents the start of a new season. August is over, summer is gone, and it’s time to move on with regular life. It’s time to re-establish a routine and get things back on track..."

Nostalgia, Gratitude, and an Open Apology…

The truth is that I have been struggling with a lot of ingratitude lately. Obviously my life has changed significantly over the past few months, and I seem to be having a hard time adjusting to being pregnant. This has naturally created a challenging inward struggle… of course it is such a gift and a …